I have a confession. I have been wearing my wedding band! eek!
Paul finally brought it home last week (for sizing) and I immediately placed it on my finger and did not want to take it off! I am so ready to marry him and be married and be a wife it could be classified a little crazy for a 25 yr old :) Sure I have moments where I think about giving up my single life and how scary that is and all the changes that are about to happen but I'm more excited about all of the change than anything else!
I've been wearing it at home at nights and changed it over to my right hand this morning on my way in to work. But while I was sitting at my desk I wanted to move it back over to my left hand where it belongs. I moved it back over and all sorts of overwhelming thoughts entered my head. I've been engaged for 9 months and trying to prepare for this marriage in so many ways but it wasn't until I was looking down at my wedding band with my hand over my keyboard that it all hit me. I'm taken. Spoken for. I'm someones wife. (in 9 days). I'm making a commitment that cannot be undone. I'm vowing to Paul, God, my family and friends that I will be in this relationship for the rest of my life. I've never done anything like that! The biggest contract I've ever signed before was for just two years!?!
So. I've decided I'm going to keep it on while I sit at my desk and other random times. It's a constant reminder of what I'm going to do next Saturday. In my mind it's just another way to study, prepare, and reflect on the big moment!
And for you superstitious folk out there.... I HIGHLY doubt me wearing my band before the wedding is bad luck or going to cause anything bad between Paul and I.... :) My hotheadedness is much more likely to do more damage than wearing the ring a little early. Besides, I don't believe in luck...I believe in ordered steps that are already written. :) (well maybe just a little luck every now and then)
(and excuse my sausage fingers....I don't have the most delicate looking hands :) whatev)